Change

As the days progress, I begin to miss my home in America. I am guessing it is normal since I've been here a few weeks already. Getting settled in is really new and exciting, but after that I have to start adapting to this new way of life. I would say it's been difficult for me dealing with it all. I can't understand people because my Khmer is not as fluent as it should be, so sometimes I am too tired to try and understand. Being more and more exposed to Cambodian society has left me disheartened at times. I am learning so much from people and their experiences, but it has made me feel weaker instead of stronger. I see things so negatively when I should be truly inspired. However, I know I will see things positively because inside me lies inner goodness and hope. I need to face my fears and my obstacles so I will be able to feel the real me again. I need to open up my heart to life because I want to love and be loved. I have closed myself up for many years now and I have the power to change that.